In honor of turning 21 a few months ago, I created this mix, “21st Sun Cycle.” This specific mix, along with the majority of my other mixes (many more soon to be released), tells a story through a combination of the song titles, lyrics, and general feelings conjured by the tracks. Below I have listed the tracklist along with narrative pertaining to what the song means to me in this specific mix context. Enjoy!
~●In The Club●~
It was only appropriate to begin a birthday mix with a track which samples the legendary lyrics of 50 Cent, “Go Shawty, it’s yo birthday!” The overall heightened hype liveliness of this track is reflective of how my energy can typically feel: high intensity, fast paced, and relentlessly LIVE. Despite that innate vivaciousness within me, I would often feel dramatically different due to a few skewed perspectives & beliefs I held onto for quite some time. Within the past 2-3 years, I have created over 42 mixes, taken thousands of photos, written hundreds of original quotes/mantras/terms, recorded 300+ dance freestyle videos and films, and much more.
Despite how much LOVE I have invested in all these personal projects, I have had a fear of openly expressing myself to the public, a fear of uploading and sharing. Some of these previously mentioned skewed views I have held onto but am now beginning to release include: a fear of being judged/ridiculed/ignored, a fear of imperfection, a fear of fully accepting myself and all my interests, a fear of not being good enough, and perhaps a few other less prevalent, but equally detrimental, fears.
This mix serves as a sort of “Wakeup Call” to myself, so in selecting this first track, I used these iconic lyrics, “Go Shawty, it’s yo birthday,” to mean something to the effect of, “Go! Courageously move forward with your plans of sharing, and do what you came here to do! Create, inspire, and uplift! Your destiny is to do this! Your time on earth is limited; so put some purpose & impact into your existence!”
~●Submerged●~
I originally used this song’s title to imply that I was being “Submerged” in stagnation, doubt, and hesitation, which are all simply manifestations of fear. After flipping this song title meaning to a more uplifting perspective, however, I now alternatively use this song title to imply “Submerge yourself fully in your passions, into your truth.” I wish to have my thoughts, feelings, beliefs, and actions in alignment. By doing so, I provide myself full feelings of empowerment. I now have come to accept and surrender to the notion that this state of being can be achieved by committing fully to diving down deeply into my destiny, by lovingly listening and actually acting on my intuition in each instance.
~●Pay ●~
“Pay for what?” To not be in alignment with our truth, especially when we are aware of it/being guided towards our dharmic direction, is to pay a tremendously heavy toll on the soul. Why do this though? As the cliché goes, “fear has killed more dreams than failure ever has.” This life is too beautiful and I have become too gratefully aware to not act on my intuition, even though I may still have different fears within me. It is in acting despite these fears that courage then rewards the soul instead. The level of fulfillment and happiness I have received from only writing this piece up until now makes me wonder why I ever feared finally doing this in the first place. LOVE is greater than {fear}. In regards to Love’s application in our own lives, however, we must simply allow it to be.
~●Louis XIV●~
Louis XIV, a French monarch of the 18th century, was also known as the “Sun King.” He was also known for doing it BIG. So, like Louis, Let Yo Soul Shine Show! Your Being, So Bright, Can Compassionately Lead Some Souls Back Into The Light! And this is why I now choose to openly share despite previous fright.
~●Fly Away●~
Feelings of wanting to escape & fly away would often come my way when I allowed fear within me to stay. Now this flight eye flip, Fly Away = Ascension of my Soul ship. Simply acting on intuition, and therefore my soul mission, reaching for the stars where my destiny is known to be written. Your talents hidden, reveal ‘em. For you the world is has been waitin’.
~●Ongoing Thing●~
As the name of the song implies, this process of unapologetically doing what we love continues to evolve, perhaps your entire life. So fear not if you have strayed, in stagnation stayed, or have yet to begin being true to you, for we can always change our ways. “Process” implies patience, faith, and persistence. So please make a vow: “To my dreams I am committed.” New Year, Old Dreams. But perhaps these dreams too will become anew, for life gifts incredible surprises, don’t it seem?
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Thank You tremendously much for reading! Many more mixes and stories to be shared, so be sure to stay in orbit with the XYZOSPHERE! Peace, Love, and Bliss! All your dreams can come to exist!
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