F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. Chronicles 1
“What is necessary to change a person is his awareness of himself.” ~ Abraham Maslow
Ever since I was a child, I would name different portions of my life. In the past, these names didn’t necessarily have a central theme, but regardless, these names gave a greater meaning and focus to different aspects of my life. This specific Journey, called “The F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. Chronicles (Finally Realizing Everyone Existing Longingly Yearns Free Expression)” follows a tremendous time in my life during which I would discover an abundance of truths about myself, learn loads of foundational life lessons, and experience endless expressions of existence. F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. officially began in August of 2014 and ended one year later in August of 2015. Three significant happenings, however, are necessary to explain for the setup of the F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. story and to connect everything back to “awareness”.
During high school, I was a very active soul. The Student Government President, Varsity Soccer & Swimming Captain, other leadership positions, and many more activities had me going at near full capacity during that time. After graduation I enrolled in NYU, New York University in New York City’s Greenwich Village. During the Welcome Week, first week of school, I did not put in the necessary active effort to make new friends due to a mixture of arrogance, shyness, and laziness. So needless to say, I did not make many friends during my first year of school, which I wound later be totally fine with because of my previously mentioned high intensity high school activity. I appreciated the time to recharge in solitude. At the same time, however, I was experiencing my Seasonal Depression which I have had since childhood. But this particular winter was my worst: first semester of college, massive city, huge school, a real non-Floridian winter with grey skies blending in with all the grey buildings and grey faces. Hahaha needless to say my perspective on life wasn’t the prettiest. In fact, I was suicidal for some of that time, but I would eventually realize that in taking my own life, I would also be taking the life of those whom love me dearly. It was from this nadir, this lowest point of my life, that my spirituality bloomed in the following semester. So instead of hanging out and running round town, I would watch hours upon hours of documentaries, read dozens of articles, read different books, and simply take time to learn about myself and other interests that were not being taught to me in any kind of school setting.
One of the concepts that I learned about during those daze is that of Chakras. A chakra is simply an energy center in the body which correlates with different aspects of the self. The chakra that interested me particularly is the 6th Chakra, otherwise known as Thee 3rd Eye. During the summer following that introspective, knowledge consuming, soul growing spring semester, in June 2014 specifically, I discovered a set of Third Eye Mantras which would change my life forever. Beyond all the woo woo esotericness, the Third Eye serves primarily as our center of intuition. So needless to say, I opened my Third Eye at that time and therefore activated my intuitive center. The true shift was the awakening of my intuition and acting on its guidance. This opening is one of the 3 key happenings to more fully explain what F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. was all about.
The next key event is the story of 555. Later that same summer, I traveled to Peru to visit family. On a certain day, I was walking around town by myself simply enjoying a stroll through new environments. During this walk, a specific house number written on the house’s wall stood out to me (the intuition begins to kick in). I continued my walk and then again, another house number stood out to me, so I intuitively added the two numbers together and their unification resulted in 555. I knew little about numerology at the time; I only knew that repeating number hold greater significance. Upon returning to the hotel and researching 555’s meaning, I discovered that the message is that major life changes are on their way and to go with the flow and with however it is that life unfolds. Doubted dat doe. At that time, I, Xy, held onto many ideas in my mind. I basically thought that I had my life planned out and that I was going to do this after that and then this and then bliss. But it would seem that there was something far greater in store for my existence.
After returning home, Southwest Florida USA, tuition for NYU year 2 was soon due. Because of complications, miscommunications, and straight up drama, the issue of , “OH Bliss, how am I gonna pay for this?” arose. One of my best friends who I also graduated high school with was also telling me how she was going to take a semester off of school. It was then that for the first time in my lifetime that the idea of leaving school for any amount of time entered my mind. The combination of thinking about the notion of not doing university for any amount of time, of having high stress in trying to figure out how I was going to pay tuition in 2 days, of knowing different facts I came across during my previous spring semester about higher education as a whole in the USA which put an awful taste in my mouth & mind, and remembering 555’s message lead me to the intuitive, near instant decision of withdrawing my enrollment in higher education. This all happened very quickly: from the time that the idea of not returning to school till the moment I clicked “confirm, withdraw enrollment” was less than 24 hours. Needless to say, I had no plan whatsoever. This decision would also dramatically shock my family and those around me, in actuality, nearly everyone who knew me at the time. Because of my previous achievements and high performance, nearly no one, including myself would ever imagine me dropping out. And it was at that moment of dropping out that F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. began.
In conclusion and in connection, it was ultimately my awareness that lead to change. An awareness of 555, the awareness of how I truly felt about higher education after my first year of college, and the awareness of what my intuition was encouraging me to do: Drop Out. In order to solve an issue, we must first be aware that an issue exists. Awareness allows one to begin to make conscious changes in life. This is why Awareness is the foundation on which the remaining 42+ life lessons I learned during F.R.E.E. L.Y.F.E. could be built and cultivated. A whole entire new existence was opened to me, but instead of staying in a place of initial excitement for this new chapter of my life, I allowed much worry and negativity from others affect me very much so. Retrospectively, I can now deeply understand that A.W.A.R.E., Always Worrying Always Reduces Excitement.
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